Saturday, June 27, 2009 '
Malay Dance Farewell For Graduating Seniors.
Today was our malay dance farewell (party) for graduating seniors.
I was supposed to meet Shazana at 8:30am because she wanted to take a sleeping bag from Kiki.
However, my dear Shazana took the wrong bus (98) and got lost, so she arrived around 9+am, which was just nice because Diana and I just took the sleeping bag from Kiki.
First, we did some exercises and then went to Kallang (something) for rehearsal.
I wasn't performing although I was part of SYF because I didn't attend practices.
Kinda regretted, because I had the chance to perform but I lost that opportunity just like that.
This was my last chance to experience something like this because I know if I ever leave BLSS to enter poly (if possible), I will never take malay dance as my cca.
I want drama because its been something I loved to do for years.
Still, malay dance has grown on me.
I value the people and the cca. (:
Finally, I got things straightened out with H (sorry, I don't know if I should just mention your name like that so I didn't, I'll feel bad, and her friends who are reading will know what this is all about).
Honestly, all these while I did realise we were not how we used to be during year 2007, where we always laughed endlessly for no good reason.
I found you to be so adorable and nice, and you were my favourite junior at that time.
Even my friends said you were a very pretty girl and I totally agreed.
Honest, I'm not trying to be so complimentary, but this is honesty.
I did notice the aura filled with hatred, but I didn't have courage to say anything.
Today, we finally had the talk which settled the silent hatred burning in our hearts.
Yes, the secret's out.
I did like him before, but I was over it, and I usually talked to him as friends only.
I felt terrible then, because I was like ruining something you had.
I always thought the song, "Di antara kalian" was meant for this problem.
I hope you and other people understand that sometimes we make mistakes which are obvious, and no matter how much we try to prevent all of it from happening, knowing that what we are doing is wrong and we should stop, we just can't.
I'm sosososososososososososososososososososososo SORRY!!!
I reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally am sorry.
I feel so remorseful.
I tried to retain myself and stop contacting that person, but at that time, I didn't want to lose the friendship, but at the same time I didn't realise I was losing your friendship. ):
I should have more self-control to back off, but honestly, every conversation that was started wasn't started with me.
Words can't describe the regret and pain in my heart for you.
If you hated me, I perfectly understand because if I were you, I would hate me soooo much.
In fact, I hated myself because I didn't do the right thing.
I can keep going on and on about this because I really feel terrible.
I'm glad you forgave me!!!
I'm so happy!!!
Actually before leaving BLSS I planned to apologise to you, but I'm glad it happened this way because you understood me and I understood you.
Thanks for understanding the position I was in.
Now we know we made a huge mistake because we let boys get in the way of girls' friendship.
This is a lesson I will take with me for the rest of my life : Never Let Boys Get In Between You and Your Girls, Because Friendship Is Worth A Lot More Than Silly Crushes.
Hey Ladies! Listen to this song, "Hey Ladies" by Rossa.
Its about boys and how they can't be trusted, but not all boys, however we still need to be careful.
Ok enough.
We played games and ate pizza.
Nice and fun!
After that us seniors gave our farewell speech.
First, our previous previous vice-chairman, Hidayah gave her farewell speech, followed by Daniaty.
Next was our recent chairman, Yasniza and then it was my turn.
I prepared the speech already so I was kinda prepared.
This was what I had in my hp's draft created rather last-minute, but was improvised along the way.
Saienah: First of all, I would like to apologise to you all because every practice I would delay you all because I always did the wrong thing.
Saienah: Wait ah. *check hp* Ah...
Saienah: Actually I didn't want to join malay dance because I sucked at it. I used to not come to practices. Now I regretted it because over the years I learned to appreciate this cca but it was too late. I worked harder but I'm still not that good, although got improve, abit, but still not good. My advice for sec 1s; even if you are not good now, just go to every practice because you might improve along the way.
Then I thanked Khalisah, Daniaty, Diana, Hidayah, Shazana, Afifah, Hafizah, Sasha and Shiqin for always being there and giving me support and said thanks.
I wanted to mention Ida but I was just nervous.
Sorry!
Honestly, I was almost crying and when I saw Shazana cried, I also cried.
Was my speech that touching? Hehehe!
Anyway, next was Shazana where alot of people cried too!
Then Diana, we cried too.
Then Atai, Mai and Aziziah where we cried too.
Needless to say, we cried all the way. -_-!
Once again, we apologised again to each other and hugged each other.
Overall, today was a great day to let out my feelings and to end all kinds of hatred we had for one another.
Please, don't hate me people.
I am just another human being who make mistakes, but along the way I learn from it.
I may not be likeable.
I may be loud and nerdy.
I lack knowledge, but I can slowly learn.
What I need is acknowledgement.
As BLSS students, let's Love and Forgive. :D
Went home with Hidayah and went Gek Poh to buy bubble tea.
So that was all. :DDD
